Mid-Year Check-In.

At the top of the year, I made a list of resolutions. Not the typical "lose 15 pounds, read 10 books by June" kind of resolutions, but more so resolutions (or goals) that improve upon who I am as a person. I believe that working on myself from the inside will inform and inspire what I do on the outside. For example, if I agree to make my physical, mental, and emotional health a priority this year, then maybe losing 15 pounds or reading more books will be a direct result of that. Overall, I wanted to commit to making subtle changes in my attitude, thoughts, and daily practice that will make a better person. I think we can all agree that having a perfect body with a cluttered mind is hardly an accomplishment.

So, I decided to revisit an old blog post where I jotted down my goals for 2015 and mark my progress. Here goes:

Get creative. Explore.
Be present. Listen.
Keep in touch.
Think less. Live in the moment.
Seek inner peace.
Less texts, more calls.
Spend less. Know that what you have is enough.
Seek to please yourself, not others.
Get rid of clutter, in your home and in your mind.
Love fearlessly. Love freely.
Discover your passion. Fuel it daily.
Invest in yourself.
Delight in the happiness of others.
Stop apologizing for how you feel.
Be gentle with yourself.
Remember: You Are Enough.

Confidence: I will say that I'm feeling more confident than ever. Sure, I'm unsure about a lot of things, including the direction I want my life to take in the next couple of years, but overall, I'm taking chances, having fun, and second guessing myself less. I still have a ways to go, though.

Creativity, Exploration: As I give in to my creative side more, I'm discovering more of what fuels me and my passion. Because I'm so focused on my creativity now, I'll admit that I haven't totally been exploring as much as I should. I have been trying new restaurants and spending more time in other neighborhoods, though, so that has to count for something!

Being Present: FOMO is still present in my life, but I'm working on it.

Keep In Touch: Whether through social network group chats, emails, phone calls (rarely) or texts, I've been a little better at making sure my family (distant and nearby) know what's happening in my life. I've gotten better, definitely.

Think Less, Live in the Moment: That ties back to my FOMO, but it also speaks to my ability to stop overthinking my everything and just BE. This year, I've absolutely given less thought to what others think of me as I speak my mind. What makes them so special that what they think of me matters so much?

For me, seeking inner peace means quieting outside noise and getting in touch with what I'm okay with. What does Janna want to do? What would Janna do in certain situations? Inner peace means making decisions that I'm totally at peace with, not giving in to outside pressure. I can say that this year, I've felt less pressure to conform and more freedom to consult myself.

Less Texts, More Calls: I've come to the realization that I just don't like talking on the phone. I have a few people who, no matter how much I try to avoid it, will ALWAYS call, so I make my exceptions. But no matter the method of communication, I like to make sure family and close friends know what's going on with me regularly.

Spend Less, Know that What You Have is Enough: I started the year off great, getting rid of clothes I don't wear and adopting a minimalist lifestyle. Lately, though, I've been feeling like I'm a bit too minimalist, having trouble finding something to wear. Most of my money is spent, however, on healthy groceries instead of eating out, so I'm winning there!

Get Rid of Clutter: Sometimes I go into my new bedroom a bit disappointed at the lack of clutter (clutter does NOT equal decor, btw), but then I remember that that was my goal all along, and I'm doing just fine. :)

Love Fearlessly, Love Freely: I've devoted myself to loving Derrick fearlessly, not worrying about what may or may not be, what could go wrong, or trying to control things so everything goes "right." So far, it's been very freeing to love without limits; that limitless love has definitely been reciprocated.

Discover your Passion, Fuel it Daily: Hello, www.itsmejmarie.com! :)

Invest in Yourself: As I await rates from an accomplished web designer, I have to keep reminding myself that this is an investment in myself and my passion. It's a large step in the right direction, one that I've never taken before!

Delight in the Happiness of Others: I understand now that what God has for me, is certainly for me, and celebrating others' happiness and success will only improve the quality of my life and bring my blessing that much faster.

Stop Apologizing for How I Feel: It's not always easy when you make the shift with people who are used to "apologetic you," but it's been so freeing. After a while, they'll get used to it. And in most cases, they have. It's still a transition for me, because I'm so used to not wanting to ruffle feathers or say things others may not like, but it's crucial for my emotional well-being.

Be Gentle with Yourself: I'm growing. I'm learning. I'm not perfect, and don't have all the answers. And that's okay. I no longer stress about what I don't yet know or can't yet do. It'll come with time.

Remember: You are Enough: I struggled with this a lot, constantly comparing myself to others. Now, I know that whatever I have to offer at any given time, is enough. Yes, I'll get wiser. Yes, I'll learn as I grow in my career. I'll become a better cook, a better writer, and a better runner. But right now, at this moment, my best is absolutely enough. I've learned to be patient with my journey and appreciate each step, focusing less on the destination and more on the ways I'll grow along the way. 

All in all, I'm proud of the progress I've made this far. The year's only halfway done, but I'm nowhere near where I was on January 1. That's worth celebrating!

Have you revisited your resolutions?

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